Monday, August 1, 2011

We did the beta

And as I suspected, we've been hit with another chemical.. Beta was 12.1.. I am positive it was higher a few days ago when the hpts were at their darkest.. So.. I don't know what is next for us to be honest.. My friend had talked about doing an FET with her last embies for a sibling and that would put her ready for another cycle in about 1.5 - 2 years from now. If that is the case, we are probably done. I will be 39.5 - 40 by then and in this world that is ANCIENT.. So, I will have to see what her and her husband decide and go from there.. So right now I don't know if this is the end of our story or not..


  1. Tonya,
    I'm so sorry this is happening again. I hate to believe that this may mean the end of your story. I pray that you get what you've been working so hard for. And hey, my IM is 40, will be 41 by the time the baby's here, so it CAN happen. She thought there wasn't a shot in hell that her eggs would work. You're not too ancient! Since your friend may not be ready, would you ever consider using a new GS?
    I'm sending lots of prayers and hugs your way. I'm sure this is a difficult time for you and your family.

  2. I am so very, very sorry.

    Words can't even begin.


  3. :(
    Yuck. So sorry. Another one of your eggs from this shared group was successful, right? Maybe get a full batch of embies on ice for yourself right away? Once on ice, evaluate options, take your time?
    So sorry for the bum beta. Big cyber hug being sent your way.

  4. Hugs Hugs and more Hugs coming your way--I truly hope this isn't the end for you. :(

  5. Krystal- I would consider trying at 40 if I had a decent Antral Follicle Count, but girl it's hard for me to get 8-11 eggs now, so I think in almost 2 years I would be lucky to get 3 :( I wish we had the option of finding a new GS, but financially we can't afford a compensated journey, so our hands are tied.. I THANK YOU so much for all your love and support! You know I will be updating here, good or bad! MUCH LOVE!

    Marissa- Thanks so much girl, it means so much that you check in on me :) I will still be following you!

    Kevin- My love.. THANK YOU!! I know you get it... I just can't see doing a cycle and freezing again.. That shit didn't get me anywhere to date so I only want to do a fresh cycle at this point, that's the ONLY thing we haven't tried yet! Not sure what the future holds for us yet, but I know it has great things for you guys.. xoxo!

    Sarah- Thanks a lot sweetie!

    Jesse- Thank you so much, the support means so much, it makes me want to cry all over again.. It's so overwhelming how special you all are to me.. I honestly don't know if this is the end for us, I am just emotionally drained from this day..UGH..

  6. I'm so sorry to hear this :( Infertility sucks ass!
    sending much love, Bobbie

  7. i can't imagine the pain you are enduring and I'm so sorry!!!! I will say prayers for you guys. I can't imagine the financial loss heart breaks for you. Keep your head up!!!

  8. Oh no!!! I am so very sorry to hear this. I truly hope this isn't the end of the road for you. <3 MUCH LOVE and big ol' hugs to you. xoxo

  9. I am sooooo sorry =(. I really wish this isn't the end of the road for you. You've worked so hard and deserve this.

  10. I'm so sorry. I really hope something works out for you. Sending positive thoughts your way. Hang in there.

  11. You are in my heart and prayers Tonya...

  12. Tonya - huge hugs. My heart aches wanting you to have everything you want and deserve. I hope this is just the start of a new beginning, not an end...


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