I cant believe this....

Things did not work out with our surrogate. She was not who she said she was, and she did not do what was agreed upon. Needless to say our beta was negative. We thawed our 6 embryos and transferred the surviving 4 into a total stranger, as this cannot be the person I have spent the last few months getting to know and love...There were many lies told, and information withheld, that was our downfall. It appears that our journey is over. DH says we will adopt. He can not trust anyone to do this and cant suffer through this again.. I want to share a child with my husband more than I want to breathe... I hope someday we can get through this and our dream can be realized... Thank you for letting me put my story out there. I pray that none of you ever go through what we have in these last months... I will be back..

It's a go!

Well things went well with Denise and we are moving forward. she had her consult with our clinic and she is had her testing done today. Her uterus looks good and the RE said it was "perfect". The mock transfer went well too. So we are waiting on the bloodwork to come back and then we get ready for the FET!!!!

Is this real?

Well, alot has happened since I last posted. My 2nd recipient also lost one of her twins... My first recipient found out she is having a BOY, and I think I have found a surrogate! Things are going great! We are driving to Kansas to meet her tomorrow and will spend the 4th together with her and her DH and kids... Wish me luck!

2 for 2!!

Well my 2nd recipient is pg with twins as well!!! I am so happy for her. This comes on the head of some bad news as my first recipient found out she lost a twin at 9 wks. We are happy she still has one healthy baby. I am praying things continue to go well for them both. That's about it for now..

Went well, am back home

The retrieval went well. it was on Saturday and I flew home on Mothers Day. My recipient was wonderful; she changed my ticket so I could be with my kids and hubby on Mothers Day. I thought that was incredibly sweet of her. I ended up having 17 eggs retrieved, and 15 were mature. Not bad for 7 days of stims I would say. Her beta is the 18th! I hope she gets that BFP she wants....Surro talks continue so far things are not fairing so well. I am still on the lookout though and know my angel is out there.

All Donors should be so lucky!

Well this cycle has ROCKED! I got to Chicago yesterday and had my b/w and u/s today and guess what? I trigger tonight! Retrieval is set for the 10th so I wont be here for many days, yippeeeeeee! Its cold here, and I am ready to get back to some warm Texas weather!

Calendar Review

Well today I had a calendar review with SIRM-Chicago. Basically they faxed me my protocol and we went over it on the phone and a few adjustments were made according to how I did last cycle. I felt they had my stims too high over the first 5 days so we lowered it. I don't want to cause serious injury to myself or have to cancel for OHSS. I hope I made a good call. I should start stimming in early May. I am also in talks with a surro so I am super busy right now! I hope it all goes great for all involved!

SIRM

Well I am back, and I am doing another donation. This time I am going to Chicago to SIRM. I had my consult today and am starting BCP today too. I will be getting a schedule in a few days so I know when to start all the wonderful meds.. More needles YEA! (NOT!)

Another donation?

Sorry I haven't been around. Things have been hectic. Since I last updated, my recipient found out she is PG! with TWINS! I am also talking to another woman about donating for her and her DH. We talked about this before but she wanted to continue searching. It looks like her donor is gonna fall through and she wanted to see if I was available. So I maybe doing another donation!

Retrieval Nightmare!

I wish the news I had to report was better....I had my retrieval on Friday and before I went in there were 33 follicles. When I woke up the first thing I asked was HOW MANY??? I was told 19! I said WHAT! The nurse kinda looked around and then got quiet. Even on anesthesia I was extremely upset and wanting to know what the heck had happened. Finally she got a Dr. who simply told me that the eggs started releasing and went into a cavern???? It turns out that the eggs started releasing because they were late getting me to retrieval. I am sooo mad at them. I ended up with 9 eggs and my recipient got 10. Of these I had 6 fertilize and she had 7. We lucked out I'm sure. I can't believe what happened. I only pray they make the cut and are frozen for later use for me.. On a happier note my recipient made it to transfer with 3 embryos and was able to freeze 3 more, one wasn't looking so great so they left it out to grow and it arrested. Even though she has some frozen and made it to transfer I still feel bad. I wish we had the others that were released....UGH! Her beta is in 14 days though! Trying to stay positive! Now my surro hunt begins!

Trigger!

Just a quick note to tell you guys that I am triggering tonight! wooohoo! I have 33 measurable follicles. My E2 is a bit high (5336) so they said I technically have OHSS. I will take it easy after retrieval. Oh yeah! My recipient got in tonight! Yippeeee! Her and her DH are so wonderful! I am even more happy we decided to work together on something so wonderful....More after retrieval!

I'm Back!

Well I am back! Sorry so long, but I have been through HELL! It snowed the day after I got here, and there was a STATE OF EMERGENCY! I was snowed in for a few days and unable to get to the clinic for monitoring. Luckily a wonderful "webfriend" from an ivf board came to rescue me and got me to the clinic on today! I hadn't been monitored in 3 days! There were 22 measurable follies with 9 smaller ones. To one of the nurses surprise they DID NOT have me trigger today.. I go back for more b/w and u/s tomorrow and hopefully will trigger then. I am really starting to feel the pain from my ovaries.. I feel like I have bowling balls in my tummy! I will let ya know how tomorrow goes. Say a prayer that I get to trigger!

Things are going great

Hey all-

Well nothing has really changed too much. I now have 15 measurable follies and my meds are staying the same. I fly out to NJ tomorrow morning and will trigger I guess in the next few days. I know they will monitor me once I get there. The cool part is in a few days my recipient and I will meet for the first time!

I will try to update while I am gone, but I dont know what type of access if any I will have while I am gone.

Happy Anniversary!

Well today is my 1 year wedding anniversary, and I got shots as a gift! LOL I am doing Repronex in the mornings and Gonal-F in the evenings and still on the Lupron, but I was able to decrease that to .5cc.. The Repronex is IM so that smarts just a TAD! the gonal-f is ok just a little burn. I am really just glad we are at this point and both my friend and I are closer to our dreams.

More later.

Makin Follies

Well my b/w shows I'm still suppressed and I have some follicles already! 6 on my right and 4 on my left. I am supposed to start stims tomorrow! I am excited and scared. I Will let you know how it goes then. Wish me luck!

Things are still looking good

Well I had b/w and u/s today and I am still suppressed! Woohoooo! Another hurdle crossed on this long road to egg retrieval.

Finally some news!

Well im starting lupron today. .10cc until further notice. I am so excited and really just ready for this to begin!

DH's Bloodwork

Well not much to report for today.. DH had his semen testing done today. Now we just wait....18 more days until I start Lupron...

On A Roll!

All dh's test are A-OK! So now we just wait until I start Lupron.. My friend has started her medication too, so we are soo excited.. She can't believe how everything fell into place and we are moving so fast.. I can't either although the tests are going to put me in the poor house! We are well over a thousand dollars already with testing and that's just for me! I don't know how much more it will be or how much DH's is and I don't want to know right about now....I am sure it will all be worth it in the end...

We are in shock!

They are letting me start BCP today!! Hooray! Since its my day 3 and hubby's testing is in 5 days, the IVF Nurse said we could start BCP! Now if hubby's testing comes back ok, we are cruising.. Come ON January 8th!