FINALLY.. Thank you Clearplan Easy

So I had my lh surge this morning!! WOOHOO! Put a call AND an email in to the nurse coordinator. Just waiting to hear back from her. I have my lab order for bloodwork and I am hoping February 6th is my lupron start day! OK gotta go workout, Bob is calling my name.. My cycle is FINALLY starting!!! :) :) :)


UPDATE: Got word to have my bloodwork done for sure on Feb 6th! WOOHOO, Lupron here I come! :) :) :)

Maybe Tomorrow?

Still no PEAK on my digital fertility monitor. Dammit! And I was wrong, TODAY is DOC 14, so of course hoping it is tomorrow since it's day 15.. Cmon ovulation, this is getting ridiculous! I feeeel like it's coming soon, but it could just be me stressing the hell out.. At least I didn't have to work out today, YAY! But tomorrow is a different story, waaaah! I know stop complaining fatty and get moving, I know, I know.. It's just between needing to ovulate, prepping for this cycle AND trying to make sure the boys are straight here at the house (and will NOT be destroying my house while I am gone!) I am in desperate need of a glass of wine!!! But I won't partake.. I'm too much of a goody goody to do that.. No chocolate, no wine, no Doritos.. C'mon maaan! OK so I'm done whining now..

OH, I WROTE THE CARD!!! I think it is lurrrrvely and now I just need to take a pic of my basket so y'all can see how much junk I crammed in it, LOL! nothing fancy just a nice wicker/wood? Basket with tons of snacks crammed in.. Snacks I would looooove to tear in to right about now, hahaha! But I won't (but she would never know if I did, muahahahaha!) OK gotta go, I'm sure something I wanted to watch is on right now.. I hope to be updating tomorrow with news of my LH surge! Y'all pray for me!

Just Checking In

Still testing at "high fertility" today.. This is day 5 of high and DOC14 (day of cycle) C'mon lh surge, damn! In other news, I put together a goodie basket for my SIL for transfer and 2ww.. Not a surprise since I asked her to send me a list of things she likes, LOL! I guess she doesn't exactly know I am making her a basket, but I'm sure she figures I asked for a reason... I am struggling with the card!! I bought a simple "Thank You" card, because I want to write something in it, but I don't even know where to start.. How do you thank someone for this kind of gift?! I keep starting to write and I just put the pen down.. I think I am gonna type it out first then hand write it in the card once I like what it says.. I tell her THANK YOU all the time and she says "Oh, stop it's all good" but dude, really? How can I stop!?!?! I...Can't.... So I am sitting here with a splitting headache and still haven't figured out what to write.. Maybe something like "C" we love you and will not ever find the words to let you know how much we appreciate you and what you are doing for us. BUT, if you ever need a kidney or part of a liver, I'm your girl. ;-) How's that sound? :-D I could just write THANK YOU in it until I run out of space... Ah well... Back to it I go.. Oh and BOB Harper is THE DEVIL! OMG!! That freaking Biggest Loser game is kicking...my...asssss... Yes, ass needs THAT MANY S's in it! DUDE... That game is the real deal.. I don't even think it can be called a game because there was NOTHING FUN about it! BUT, I burned a shit load of calories and lost another LB! So Bob knows his shit.. I get to rest tomorrow, but back at it for 5 days in a row after that! :-/

Getting Closer

Today was the first day my digital OPK asked me to "pee on a stick" I did.. And it said HIGH FERTILITY! YAY!!! So my surge is definitely on it's way! I am hoping it is this weekend and I can have my progesterone level checked by next Friday and start Lupron then! Cmon LH surge!! On the weight loss front I am kind of at a plateau.. I am down 12lbs total and stuck.. I am NOT gaining, but NOT losing either for the last few days.. SO... I amped up my workout today and Oh...Em....Geee! I asked Jesus to come take me at several points during the workout!! I just keep pushing forward knowing it's for a good reason! Aaaaand on that note... I talked to the nurse coordinator today and went over my current BMI and what the anesthesiologists cut off was and I MADE THE CUT AS OF NOW! WOOHOOO! So anymore weight loss at this point is just gravy (hmmmm, gravy.. I miss you!) So I will continue on like I haven't reached it, so I know for sure I am in the "good to go" zone come egg retrieval! So I am 13.5-14lbs away from my goal for egg retrieval and IF I reach it by then, I would only need to lose another 40 to be at the weight I was when I MET my hubby! Oh yeah, it's ON I'm coming for you weight loss!!!

To assist me in my goal I have ordered Bob Harper and he will be here Friday, LOL! Well him and Jillian via the Biggest Loser game for the Kinect! I am already afraid of the pain they will bring, but I'm excited to give it a whirl! I need to be able to switch up my workout between to two programs..

So that's about all that's going on for right now, will update more once there's more to tell!

For Me??!....Liebster Award!

THANK YOU!!! To my super sweet and awesome friend Rebekah, over at Making Miracles for nominating me for a "Liebster Award"! Rebekah is in the third trimester of her surrogacy journey and carrying TWO little girls via Gestational Surrogacy for her IPs! I have had the pleasure of meeting Rebekah and having her cook some amazing dinner for me and she is as wonderful as she seems! Make sure you check out her blog and follow along on her amazing journey!

The Liebster Blog Award is an award for bloggers with less than 200 followers who deserve more recognition.

Liebster is a German word that means ‘dearest’ or ‘beloved’, but can also mean‘favorite’. The idea of the award is to bring attention to blogs with less than 200 followers.

The Award comes with a few rules. You’re supposed to:

·         Show your thanks to the blogger who gave you the award by linking back to them

·         Reveal your top 5 picks for the award and let them know by leaving a comment on their blog

·         Post the award on your blog

·         Bask in the love from the most supportive people in the blogosphere – other bloggers

·         Hope your recipients pass the award to their 5 favorite blogs to keep the love flowing.

So my 5 picks for the Liebster Award are:

1. Janine at http://www.lifeasmrsh.com/ she is currently TTC and has such a warm and caring heart! Her blog is so inspirational and a must read if you like getting pick me ups to start your day! You will love her as much as I do once you read!

2. My girl Jesse at http://auntieincubator.blogspot.com/ She is freakin hilarious and we would TOTALLY be friends IRL if we lived closer! She is currently pregnant for her IF's who are international, check this girl out!

3.Marissa at http://eggsinabasketcase.blogspot.com/ after multiple IVF's and FET's she is currently pregnant with two little boys! Plus she is a rock star in my book, handling whatever they throw at her during her pregnancy with grace and the F word. I LOVE HER.

4. Katie over at http://katieandpatsivfjourney.blogspot.com/ I have been in a cycling group with Katie before and have grown to love her dearly! She has so much hope and has faced so much in such a short time and won a battle with cancer! She is now living her dream of being pregnant with TWINS after going through a successful IVF! Her blog is definitely worth a visit!

5. Babyhopes at http://chasingourstork.blogspot.com/, she has a great sense of humor and she is currently pregnant after struggling TTC and navigating international adoption of her other 2 kiddos!

THANK YOU AGAIN Rebekah! Love you TONS!

Aaaand it's Heeeerre!

SIL's AF that is, LOL! Got a text bright and early this AM (the ET/CT time difference sucks sometimes!) saying "AF is here in full force, call Tina! :)" Oh yeah!! I jumped up and called! So as we already know, get on active bcp Saturday and they will give instructions depending on what is going on with me. Now the pressure is on ME! C'mon LH surge, we need you to bring it before the end of this month! So now just praying it is Jan 28th-30th like I think it should be! So far things are on track so I don't expect it to just be late, but ya never know with me, LOL!

On another note, my dear, sweet, crazy, new friend Nini wrote the sweetest blog post about me today. She thinks I am her support system, but the secret is SHE IS MINE! I have come to cherish our friendship in the short amount of time we have spent texting and talking on the phone. We are so much alike and sometimes we laugh more than we actually talk! She is the best. I would be going crazy if I didn't have her to commiserate with during all this waiting! I just know 2012 is THE YEAR for both of us!

Damn, I just checked my calendar to make sure today isn't my LH surge (just checking!) I never thought I would be chomping at the bit to start meds again!

Terrific Tuesday

The FSA reimbursement check came today! I was waiting at the door for the mail lady, LOL! I grabbed that check so fast, I didn't even look at the other mail. I ran to the bank and deposited it! So tomorrow I pay the balance of our IVF off and then we wait for the next step! Not much else to report today but that was THE BEST news so I had to share! Til next time!

Small Panic, But it's All Good

I got a text Saturday night from "C", my SIL saying, "Dude, I totally messed up the days of when my AF was coming, it's not the 23rd, it's MONDAY, hope this doesn't mess anything up, I'm really sorry!" I sent back: "FUUUUUUUCK.." Enter panic mode. Why you ask? Because her meds won't arrive until TUESDAY. So after a small hissy fit and a quick search of the interwebz and some texting with my good friend and smartest experienced surro I know Rebekah and I told "C" to take another active bcp and let's call the clinic Monday. By doing this, we delayed AF until Tuesday or Wednesday, so no harm no foul. Talked to the nurse today and she said, she will start more bcp on day 3 of her cycle and then add lupron in later, so it was all fine if she started Monday, we just didn't know since we have no calendar. Why no calendar, you ask? (I know y'all are yelling at the screen now saying "WTF, where is your calendar!?") because I am NOT doing bcp this go round. RE feels they will over suppress my old ass ovaries, so we are doing a mid luteal lupron protocol. I am tracking ovulation and once I have my LH surge (ovulate) I have bloodwork done a week later. If my lh is greater than 8 I will start lupron then. AND that's when we will get our schedule.. So we have about a week or so more before we are getting it.. If I am still alive by then, I feel on the verge of a heart attack anytime I get news, I am a preparer and do not like this flying by the seat of my pants thing, UGH! So, that's all I got for today. Oh and I am down a total of 10LBS! so about 16 more to go by the time I get to egg retrieval! I THINK I CAN I THINK I CAN!

Who Said Friday The 13th was Bad Luck??

NOT THIS GIRL! GUESS WHOSE CLAIM GOT PAID TODAY?? YUP MINE! BOOYAH! I CANNOT believe it! That was so damn fast! In fact it was SO fast, I don't think my direct deposit paperwork had time to go through! Methinks they mailed me a check but guess what? I DONT CARE CUZ THEY PAID!! Ok.. I'm finished being insane.. Hubby wasn't happy when I ran in the bedroom and woke him up at 9AM considering we just went to bed at 2:30AM, LOL! Sorry dude, I was excited! Someone texted me and woke me up at 8:30am so since I had to pee anyway (yes I tells all my bidness!) I figured lemme check and see what's up with our claim... Lucky day indeed.. NOW.. I can't say all that without saying the bad part... Remember that lab I said my clinic lost? Welllll, when I went for the other lab to have it drawn I shot over to records to pick up a copy. Turns out THEY LOST IT TOO! WTF!?!?! So the results never got put into my file with the lab and they have to try and remember where the hell they even sent the lab off to (DUMBASSES!) so now I have to call my old RE (AWKWARD) and say "I need another copy of that Cystic Fibrosis lab" OR have it redone OR have my new RE send for my entire records file to get the one lab.. So...Much...Bullshit.. For one damn test! So I spent the better part of the afternoon and early evening cussing out folks at my husbands sister hospital.. Whatev's it's their bad for losing my damn results! The REAL reason it's lost with the lab is because they never billed my insurance for it! Why you ask? Because originally when I had it drawn with about 8 other labs, those dimwits drew the test ABOVE the CF lab (EVEN THO CF BOX WAS CLEARLY CHECKED!) and when I called them on it, they said "Oh, we are so sorry, ummm... we won't charge you for this other test since it was our mistake" then proceeded to draw my blood send it off and fax results to RE and never input it so as not to be found out regarding their incompetence.. Funny part is, everyone associated with that day NO LONGER WORKS IN THE LAB! Niiiice... So yeah.. No idea how this is gonna play out.. I can't believe the RE's office freaking lost their copy anyway! NOT COOL...

But I am NOT gonna let that ruin my day, I'm too happy! So hopefully this weekend keeps on getting better! Enjoy peoples!

Weight Loss Update

Down 8.5lbs as of today! Still wanna lose 17.5lbs before I start stims so I am just watching my caloric intake and working out still 4x a week. I did add in whey protein mixed with ensure (as my meal) for the work out mornings, I am surprised that I like the taste! These workouts are KICKING MY ASS!! But I just keep telling myself, "no pain, no gain" or in this case no weight loss, LOL!! You never really know how out of shape you are until the day AFTER you work out.. WOW.. I wanted to remain in the fetal position crying.. Totally Pwned by an exercise program, for realz... But not for long! I plan on making this workout program my BITCH! So that's my update.

On the medical front. It seems the clinic wants me to have another test done (I already know I don't have sickle cell, but I shall do this anyway..) and they can't find my CF testing (even though I sent them my copy!) so I have to pick my record of that lab up tomorrow, will get lab for sickle cell done while I am already at the lab.. Claim is working it's way through the system (shows pending) so hopefully it shows PAID pretty quickly! SO that's the haps y'all!

Claim Has Been Sent

I did it! I got the claim form sent with the receipts and I called to make sure it was received (it was!) and the lady informed me that it would be processed MONDAY! I am hoping it goes through smoothly and I even got a direct deposit form from them so we don't have to wait on a check in the mail, BOOYAH! Check me out being all efficient and whatnot! LOL!! So y'all know I am gonna be watching that site like a hawk waiting for the day payment is sent! I should be getting our schedule sometime next week. If I don't have it by Wednesday I will be calling the clinic and stalking our nurse. I am sure NO ONE wants that, so hopefully she gets it done.. In other news I am on another weight loss kick. Full disclosure I gained a BUNCH of weight back after the chemical pregnancies and then after the match fell apart. I am an emotional eater and I dove into the depths of chocolate and Doritos like nobody's business! BUT I did pull myself out a while back and started doing better, but just mildly better. Annnywho.. After talking to the clinic the RE informed me that the anesthesiologist group absolutely WILL NOT give you the good stuff to have your egg retrieval if you are not at or under a certain BMI and right now I would not be getting the good stuff. SO... since about 2 weeks before Christmas I started getting my shit together.. Starting a Dec 26 I REALLY starting getting it together and I have been good since, watching my caloric intake, working out (I HATE WORKING OUT!) and drinking a shit-ton of water (anyone got any depends I can have??) and IT..IS..WORKING! I have lost 7lbs since 12/26.. Not too shabby.. My goal is to lose another 20lbs by the time I leave for TX. I am working out 4 times a week on a medium to high intensity workout for 35 minutes each session. I am loving the energy I have after but I am HATING the terrible shin pain from the running.. Tomorrow I am getting a good sports bra (Or else I run the risk of having black eyes from the girls hitting me in the face!) and possibly some new running shoes.. So I will update on my weight loss and all things IVF hopefully as soon as there is something new to report! Enjoy your weekend!

What A Difference A Day Makes

Today I paid a HUGE chunk of the $7500.00 that our IVF cycle is costing.. $5,000.00 to be exact. Now we wait for the Flex Spending Account to process the claim and reimburse us the $4,000 max that we contribute for the year. Should take about two weeks for them to do this. So with that payment being made, the clinic KNOWS I am serious about moving forward ASAP. So I talked to the nurse and with my next LH surge (beginning of Feb) I am having my progesterone level checked and if it is greater than 8 I start Lupron!! My SIL should have her next AF around January 23rd. If it starts on time, she starts her next round of bcp and Lupron! then she is on those until she begins the estrace and vivelle patches which would be when I start stims, which means I am heading to TX SOON! Like less than 6 weeks like in about 4-5!!! OMG! I am SOOO happy things are moving along the way they are. Now I just need the stars to align and for the FSA people to be on top of their stuff so there are no delays!! That's my update! Should have our schedule early next week according to the nurse! IT'S HAPPENING!!!