HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY CAIDEN!

This post is surreal to write.. Today my little baby boy is ONE YEAR OLD. Looking back at his birth and how terrified we were and our mad dash 37 hours straight to get to him after hearing it was an emergency c-section. Then getting updates that he was in the NICU. We couldn't drive fast enough to get to him! When we finally got there we just wanted to see him for ourselves so we could know he was "OK"... We had no idea of the long road that was ahead of us of almost a month in the NICU.. I am SO grateful to the staff at the hospital for their care of our boy and how wonderful they were to our family..

Surrogacy has been probably the hardest thing I have had to go through in my life, but I am very glad it was an option we could undertake and afford (mostly)... I know without our SIL, Christy our boys wouldn't be here..

I have so many emotions leading up to this day.... Thinking about Caiden's twin and what could have been.. Wondering if I lost another son or was that my daughter. Not knowing what happened to Caiden's twin, if it was abnormalities with him/her or just a "fluke"... The unknown is what hurts the most.. I KNOW twins would have been hard, but I think we could have managed it.. I wish my other baby had made it.. BUT then I look back at the pregnancy with Caiden and how complicated it was from about 20 weeks on with the placenta previa and wonder would we have lost them both??? 

I know I need to focus on what we DO HAVE and that is a HEALTHY HAPPY LITTLE BOY... Yep a little boy, he's ONE so he's a toddler now...

Here are a few pics of where we have come from and where we are...  Our 1 year appointment is next week so I will have stat updates then... His party is Saturday so I will post pics from that as soon as I can...

Until then here is our birthday boy!!

HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY CAIDEN RHYS!!! MOMMY AND DADDY LOVE YOU!

All about Greyson

OK here is a Greyson update!!! Not too much going on with the big guy. He's talking a ton and keeping us so busy.. He goes between loving his brother to death and using him as his personal jumping pad! They fight and then hug.. Last month we got Greyson's haircut! It was exciting and sad at the same time.. His hair is INCREDIBLY CURLY. So he hated getting it combed. He cried whenever he saw his brush. So we just bit the bullet and took him in. He wasn't sure at first but he did great! Of course the girl giving him a lollipop helped a ton, haha! SO here are the pictures from his haircut. I didn't cry but I sure was sad to loose those long curls! His short curls are pretty adorable though!

Another update coming this weekend!

July Update (Mostly Caiden)

Before it gets too far from a month, let me give a quick update! The kids are growing like weeds and we are already getting ready for the leaves to change and the cooler weather to hit here in Vermont... Not too much has happened in this last month... My husband's grandma passed away recently and that was hard to stomach.. She was an incredible woman and I am deeply saddened that Greyson and Caiden won't get to know her as I did.. She will be truly missed...

The boys are doing well.. Caiden is pretty much done with bottles.. It's so cute to see him holding one since he doesn't really like them so much now. He's all about his cups :( I can't believe he will be 11 months old in a few days!!!

Greyson has a fascination with Lightning McQueen

Greyson enjoying some time with his big brothers!

Caiden LOVES swinging at the park!

Oh, HEY THERE.... Wait.... Are these not for me??

Gorgeous Dam on our way to a friends in CT.. 

The winters suck but you can't beat these views!

Another update coming all about Greyson, until then!!!