What cycle day is that!!

Yup, I had my consult, and my FSH was... 3.1!!!!!Holy cow that was a good number!! I was soo excited when the Dr. told me.. He said I am at about day 28 of my cycle so it may have been lower if I waited a few more days. He also said that I am an excellent candidate for ED and I should consider it again after this cycle. Maybe I will... So now DH has to have some tests done and we are on our way! His appt isn't scheduled until Jan 8th though, so I will update ya after the New Year unless something good happens!

More Testing Anyone??

Well, I had to have more blood drawn today, to do another FSH.. The last one came back at 23.7 and obviously that's not good.. I know what you're thinking..No, that's not a normal level, but since I don't have AF we had to guess what day was Day 3 last time and we were off by about 2 weeks according to the RE, so now I had another one done today and they are doing same day results, cus my consult is TOMORROW!!!! I hope all is well, but I am sure they will be calling me if it's not...Off topic for a bit, Christmas was GREAT! Well everything except that ticket I got for not wearing my seat belt properly (you short gal's can sympathize, I wear it under my arm!) We had our picture taken and it came out pretty good, if I say so myself, and I DO!...That's about it for now, just waiting on the consult tomorrow am...

Tests, Tests, and MORE TESTS!

Well, its been a while since I have had anything to talk about, I had my 29th birthday on the 7th and I finally had my bloodwork done! 12 tubes of blood later, and all kind of poking in the nether regions, now we just wait to see what all the results are.. I have my consult scheduled for December 31st! I am praying that everything looks ok and we can move forward.. This gives me something else to concentrate on besides my own journey.. That by the way is at a standstill. I want to concentrate ALL my energy into being a healthy egg donor and I don't want to be stressed out while I am doing that. I haven't given up, just put it on hold.. DH is being so supportive about all of this and he is so excited that eventually, our dream too will come true.

Recovery and Regrouping

Well, my friend has picked herself up, dusted herself off and is ready to start again.. This time with ME as the donor!! YIPPEEE! I knew I was meant to help her! We are in the process of talking to the clinic ( I need to have all my testing done and the clinic needs to make sure I am a good candidate to donate)... We are also on the internet, looking for meds since this is all out-of-pocket and I want to help as much as I can.. We have decided to do a shared cycle! SO I will get my precious embies (Godwilling)to freeze and she will get hers to transfer! fingers xxxxxx that all testing on me comes back ok! We have it scheduled for the 16th of next month!

Helping ease the pain

Well, my friend found out that her pregnancy was not viable. I am here for her if she needs anything and of course when she is ready to embark on this journey again, I am there for her! Time will heal her wounds. This has also caused me to rethink my position. Can I handle this?? What if I am in this situation when it's my turn? I have some talking to do with DH and maybe some more thinking.....

Problems

Well, the doctor said that they didn't see the fetal pole or a heartbeat.. She has an appt today to find out it this is a viable pregnancy... I told her not to worry that we are praying and, she knows that I am there for her if she needs me ( I told her already that I was going to be her donor for a sibling for this one!)I will update when I know something.. As for me I am still searching for that special someone, in case I can get started sooner!

Update on my friend

I heard from my friend today, who has been ignoring since she is pregnant, she goes to work comes home and sleeps! She is doing good and her beta was a great number! She is wondering if it's one or two? U/S is on 8/19...We will see

Another potential recipient?

I posted an ad regarding being an egg donor, and got some responses, but nothing serious. Well, one woman was interested, as we were alot alike, but for other reasons, decided to keep searching, I wished her luck and that was it... I hope she finds her donor soon..

An ANGEL in disguise!

I have been so caught up in my friends pregnancy, that I have not had the time to seriously search for our surrogate. I did tell my sister about it and she was less than enthusiastic about us pursuing this. She said I need to save more money and buy a house first, then think about it some more, and what if the person takes my money, what if they dont give me the baby, nothing positive, we argued I cried, then I hung up on her.. It wasn't a good day. I called my friend just to vent and I got her voice mail, so then I emailed her all the details.. She was soo supportive! She just said some people will never understand how bad we want this and since they are not going through it they are not capable of understanding.. It was alot longer but that's the jist of it! I love her so much, she's the best. And now for the best part........She talked to her husband and has offered to carry for us after she delivers her own baby!! How wonderful is that??? I was dumbfounded.. I am so excited that we have a wonderful friend that is that kind. She said she will be ready in 2004!!! that's not too far away!

Things are working out for someone..

Not for me just yet, but for my friend, she is no longer my potential recipient, as she found someone else to do a shared cycle with her, but she is now a good friend of mine even though we have never met. I emailed her yesterday and ironically enough, she had her retrieval yesterday (well her egg donor did!!) She is having her transfer on Saturday and hoping for twins, I hope she gets her wish!

FINALLY

No, NO, we haven't found another surrogate yet, I finally moved and we have internet and a phone! We moved in on the 25 of last month, but our phone and internet were just hooked up!!! Gosh, I have been so cut off from the world! I am looking for a job too, since I haven't worked since a week before the wedding! I am ready to start over at a new job, in a new area, maybe that's just what I need. I emailed the potential recipient today, just to touch base and to let her know I am not a flake...She emailed me back ans was so sweet about the lack of communication until now. I was honest with her and told her that things with the last few surrogates we talked to have not been going well, as they either live in a surro-unfriendly state or we just didnt see eye to eye on important things, they were all nice, seemed geniune, but we just didnt click, you know? Anyway, she said she is just taking time and weighing her options as well. Maybe I need to take a break too and concentrate on finding a job and getting settled into my new place.

Back from the wedding!

The wedding was WONDERFUL! We opted not to go on a honeymoon, as we are moving in about 3 weeks! We are relocating closer to DH's work so I am house hunting and surrogate searching, not too much huh? I am back in the saddle, but concentrating on house hunting mostly. I haven't talked to the potential recipient in a while just an occasional email here and there, she is gonna get in touch with the coordinator at the clinic in TN to see what testing she and her DH needs to have done. She did send me a card for the wedding! She's so nice! She said she can wait for me to get things situated, with finding a new surrogate and trying to move, but we will stay in touch. I am so sad that I may not be able to come through for her now. I told her I feel i am meant to help them!

IT'S OVER.............

Well, our surrogate was supposed to be here yesterday, and she has not showed up or called... I can't believe it. You read stories about women taking advantage of people, but you never think it's going to be you..I won't go into anymore detail, but suffice it to say that things ended and not well.. She was NOT a surrogate and I am not sure if she ever was one... I was devastated and my now fiance' is alarmed and hesitant to move forward. I convinced him that not all women were out to scamm couples and someone would be there to help us! The wedding is in 3 days and my family starts coming in this evening.. I will have to put this grief behind me and start over with my search.... On a positive note the recipient is wonderful and I have decided that even though things have not worked out for me, I am going to donate to her still and since I don't need any meds, there will be no compensation paid at all. She deserves to be a mother and she is one of the kindest people I have ever talked to! Please pray for me that we will one day have our dream of another baby..

On her way!

Well I talked to the surrogate and her and her hubby are on the way! SHe said they got held up due to waiting on their tax return, so it will be there at 2PM and they are pulling out after that. I am soo excited.. I was having some second thoughts and was thinking maybe we were being scammed, but it is all coming together. The recipient and I have been talking and have decided that since my surrogate is on the way, we are moving ahead so they can be prepared at the retrieval and be there with us in TN!

Corresponding

Well this isn't that interesting. The recipient and I have been emailing back and forth, with info on each others family, trying to get to know each other a little better. Things are going so good with her and I! On the surrogacy front, the GS is on her way here from her state and she is bringing the contract with her! I am so excited that she is coming and we are going to be embarking on this journey together!

A Reply!!!!!!!!

I received a reply from the couple! They were thrilled with the prospect of me helping them! They couldn't believe I was not asking for any compensation, but wanted to find out more about me and my desire to do this. We exchanged info and agreed to talk via phone. I also received the official email saying our loan was approved for the cycle, so all we needed was the surrogate to sign off on the contract and things were moving right along! I talked to the PGS (potential gestational surrogate) and she was thrilled that we got the loan, but wanted us to send the retainer to her ASAP, so she could move to our state and be near us during the pregnancy. I called to the recipient and we talked for a while, she is soo nice! She didn't have a problem with paying for the meds and we were excited to try to work things out with her clinic and mine (I was talking to a clinic in TN)

Answering the Ad

I answered the ad today! I emailed the couple and told them about my surrogacy situation. I simply told them that if they covered the cost of meds, I would give them whatever eggs were retrieved minus 5 or 6 for my hubby and I ( OK, I know I was naive back then and hadn't really researched the fertiliaztion rates and everything that goes with being an egg donor, but hey I was trying to help, and that's a start).