Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Confidence Faltering?

OK so I always want to be honest here and let my feelings out. Well today I am struggling.. I had to great women from a group I am in get negative betas.. I was SURE atleast ONE if not BOTH of them would get awesome news today, so I was definitely not prepared to hear "it was negative"... I am in complete shock and I have to ask myself, "What does that mean for me?"  I know everyone is different and everyone's protocol is different but damn! This really hit me hard! Don't get me wrong I have been on this path a loooooong time so if you have been reading for a while or read back, obviously in my journey I would have come across friends that have had negatives.. I don't know if it's because they transferred around the same time as we did or if their betas were today and only 6 days before mine, but couple that with my surrofriend's negative test and you have yourself a freaked out Tonya! We are still going to continue to test, because the bottom line is, if it's gonna be it will and if it ain't well...it ain't..

Say a little prayer tonight for my friends Francine and  Katie and while your at it, please say one for us as well! Will update tomorrow with new POAS results, either way! 


  1. Praying right now for you, your friends and that wonderful pee stick to come back with 2 lines!

    Love you,


  2. Stupid 2WW! They can create humans in a lab, you'd think they could figure out a way to shorten that time! It's TORTURE!!!

    Don't lose hope. Keep thinking positive thoughts. I squinted and squinted at that pee stick. I had myself convinced there is a faint something. :)

  3. I totally understand! While we were in the 2ww I would see all these other people getting their results and my mind would start to wander. I wanted it so bad and it's not even my baby, so I can only imagine what you're feeling. I'm praying every night for you to see that BFP soon!
    Stay positive! *hugs*

  4. Stay positive is right! This IS going to happen! We are sending lots of good thoughts your way.

  5. BFK- Nessa! Thanks my love!

    Melissa- Aw, thanks for that I squinted until I thought I was gonna pop a blood vessel, LOL!

    Joann- Thanks, you inspire me!!

    Krystal- YES, hearing others news (good or bad) make me super anxious! I am nervous for them and then even more nervous for me! I want to crawl in a hole and wait it out!! But im too much of a badass for that! :P

    Kevin- You sir inpsire me as well, we will be right behind you guys growing some babies! =)

    Thank you ALL for your support, it really does make it easier to stomach this horrid wait!


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