So I told her

I told my friend surrogate that we are moving on without her as our surrogate and that she needed to send me back the meds or the cash equivalent if she could not get the meds from her refills. She agreed. The call went better than I thought it would. I kept it civil and I could sense a sadness in her voice that I was glad was there. I hope that is from her knowing how badly we are hurting over here.. In other news, we have actively been looking for someone to carry for us. I have gotten more responses than I thought I would so I was surprised. Then I was disheartened when I read majority of them. Finding someone you trust to carry your child is an incredibly overwhelming thing to embark on, especially when you have been hurt or let down by family/friend and/or independent surrogate we worked with it's like "who can we trust?" We have to trust someone though is the bottom line if we want this to happen and we do, so we are stepping out on faith that everything is going to turn out fine and we will have our little miracle at the end of this journey... I will update when I have more news. Off to find that elusive money tree, if y'all know where it is, let me know, kthanks! LOL...